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I came across the concept of Ugh Fields here on the brilliantly named LessWrong.com website. I’d like to insert a warning here that I will be talking about topics which are by their very nature highly uncomfortable – so please don full mental protective gear before reading this, or if you are feeling at all wobbly in general feel free to skip this post entirely!

Ugh Fields is a fantastic description of how we poor humans unwittingly condition ourselves to unconsciously flinch from even thinking about a serious personal problem we have. this could be anything from a difficult relationship, to our finances, our careers or that hellhole that is the cupboard under the sink.

Once set up, the Ugh Field forms a self-shadowing blind spot covering an area desperately in need of optimization, imposing huge costs. the article says:

‘The idea is simple: if a person receives constant negative conditioning via unhappy thoughts whenever their mind goes into a certain zone of thought, they will begin to develop a psychological flinch mechanism around the thought. The “Unhappy Thing” — the source of negative thoughts — is typically some part of your model of the world that relates to bad things being likely to happen to you.

A key part of the Ugh Field phenomenon is that, to start with, there is no flinch, only negative real consequences resulting from real physical actions in the problem area. Then, gradually, you begin to feel the emotional hit when you are planning to take physical actions in the problem area. Then eventually, the emotional hit comes when you even begin to think about the problem. The reason for this may be that your brain operates a temporal difference learning (TDL) algorithm. Your brain propagates the psychological pain “back to the earliest reliable stimulus for the punishment”.

If you fail or are punished sufficiently many times in some problem area, and acting in that area is always preceeded by thinking about it, your brain will propagate the psychological pain right back to the moment you first begin to entertain a thought about the problem, and hence cut your conscious optimizing ability right out of the loop. 

Related to this is engaging in a displacement activity: this is some activity that usually involves comfort, done instead of confronting the problem. Perhaps (though this is speculative) the comforting displacement activity is there to counterbalance the psychological pain that you experienced just because you thought about the problem.

For example, suppose that you started off in life with a wandering mind and were punished a few times for failing to respond to official letters. Your TDL algorithm began to propagate the pain back to the moment you looked at an official letter or bill. As a result, you would be less effective than average at responding, so you got punished a few more times. Henceforth, when you received a bill, you got the pain before you even opened it, and it laid unpaid on the mantelpiece until a Big Bad Red late payment notice with an $25 fine arrived. More negative conditioning.

Now even thinking about a bill, form or letter invokes the flinch response, and your lizard brain has fully cut you out out. You find yourself spending time on internet time-wasters, comfort food, TV, computer games, etc. Your life may not obviously be a disaster, but this is only because you can’t see the alternative paths that it could have taken if you had been able to take advantage of the opportunities that came as letters and forms with deadlines.

The subtlety with the Ugh Field is that the flinch occurs before you start to consciously think about how to deal with the Unhappy Thing, meaning that you never deal with it, and you don’t even have the option of dealing with it in the normal run of things. I find it frightening that my lizard brain could implicitly be making life decisions for me, without even asking my permission!’

this rang so many bells for me that it was almost funny if it hadn’t been so serious and so life-altering. there are particular areas where my ugh fields are so highly developed that in the past I have just decided never ever to go there, like tiptoeing through a field filled with landmines… the problem is that eventually the paths between the mines get fewer and fewer, our lives constrict and we live hemmed in, terrified lives, unable to reach the freedom on the other side of the fears that other people have planted in us, or which we have installed in ourselves…

like these Argentinian minefields in bogs near Port William in the Falkland Islands, once installed they can stay in place for decades (a lifetime, even?) if their continued evasion is feasible. alcohol dependence can definitely be a self-shadowing blind spot – in itself it stops us doing anything about it. it can be terrifically hard to see the problem, to see the wood for the trees.

I like the concept of Ugh Fields because rather than treating the problem as a lack, a deficiency in our characters, it separates this out as a behaviour, which can first be identified, and then be tackled in a number of ways, perhaps chief amongst which is generous dollops of self-compassion. I can’t get enough of that good stuff, baby!

this is a longish post so there will be more thoughts about the dispelling part soon I hope. until then, remember the words of the Sergeant in Hill Street Blues! Prim xx

 

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