the terminology around our cessation of alcohol consumption was the subject of a great article by Carrie Armstrong (to whom I was introduced, as is so often the case, by Lucy.)
you should read the whole article. possibly print it out and keep a copy under your pillow, another in your car glove compartment, another in your desk drawer at work. refer to it as frequently as you like.
because using the phrase ‘giving up drinking’ infers a subsequent lack in our lives, which could not be further from the truth. as she says:
‘Recovery is not a sacrifice. It is empowering. An exciting and wonderful journey. The most amazing thing a person can do for themselves. And I never expected it. Never knew it could feel like this. Certainly nobody told me it could be this way. Alcoholics waste years on drinking. On being anesthetised by our drug of choice. We’ve missed so much of life. All of us. Recovery does not have to be about missing out on even more by spending our new sober life either commiserating with other people who also think they are also missing out, or by spending it shut away from the world out of fear. Fear that our self-discipline is not strong enough to fight the need to drink. More mistaken thinking. Nothing about being recovered needs to be about lack.’
please. read the article. breathe it in. set it to plain chant and sing it whenever you are alone, or with other people, or on a mountain top. write it in loopy pink icing on a cake and eat it all by yourself. embroider it a thousand times onto raw silk and smooth it over your naked body (too much?!):
nothing about being recovered needs to be about lack.
I’m running again now – can you tell?! feeling so much better. thanks all for your support, as ever.
am now close enough to my year to realise I have been a day off in my recent reckoning. will be celebrating my one year sober on Tuesday 4 November, so (still!) have 23 days to go to one year.
I am not lactose-free – I am lack-free 🙂 🙂